By Emmi K. Blake
Artwork by Alli Rowe
Past
It took until night for his bottle to clink empty,
the ice to liquefy, them all to lie destitute—dead soldiers.
His whiskey tongue spoke sour; I coaxed
the hours to blackout,
cowered and watched cartoons.
Present
Peppermint tea steeps beside ambience.
I fidget with words; feeling
recoils under the surface of dissociation
as the fresh leaves drift, confined.
The way the mint sinks is my mimic;
it doesn’t drown, but it tries for a while.
Thumbing the thin rectangle and the staple
holding it, I want it to be more filling.
It drops from my skin, runs sleek against the side.
I prepare for it to burn my throat awake.
It might find something
in the darkness of my trachea—the cells there.
I read somewhere that cells hold memories;
maybe, they could learn to speak.
Future
Solitude will tell me things I never want.
They will not ever be what I think;
instead they will wear a child’s eyes and a shroud of
dust and cobweb.
They will put a hand over mine, guide the ink,
bleed something sapphire.